Sister

I'll die one day
In my last breath
Still worrying about you
And you'll gift me indifference
Void, as you had always been
I'll watch you
In the deafening silence of sorrow
Bearing the numbness of pain
Of losing you to the unknown
I'll never understand
The way you lived,
Nor the way you threw your life away
Into the pits of nothingness
I'll stand in the darkness
I'll see your tears
Gleaming in the black
Wanting to wipe them away
I'll weep along with you
But you'll never see me
I'll share your pain
But you'll never feel me
I'll cry, as helplessness binds me to her
I'll die one day
Your pain leading my way
I won't return from this journey
Not to see you cast yourself
Like a moth
Into the blazing flame,
Which you think is your hope.